Do not ask me how I am…
There are days that I am good, and there are days I am just ok. Then there are also days where I can’t or don’t want to answer that question. So as of this moment, I won’t answer with just an auto-pilot “I’m fine.” That would be total BS! I am now bringing forth truth. Now, this doesn’t mean a bitching session or a negative nil kind of response- just plain truth.
John 13:18 says God uses people to change the world. People! Not superheroes or saints… regular people! Us! So here is my first response: my holidays are not wonderful. They are a day, and yes Christmas is the birth of Christ but to me, it is another day of opportunity. I cannot stand all the hustle, bustle, and materialistic-ness of this holiday. I also cannot understand the fuss around New Year’s Day. Yes, folks, it is a new calendar year but all this hype about goals, losing weight, and blah, blah…it’s just BS! Never do I hear someone say “I am going to slow down before speeding up again, to really spend more time with me!” OMG dis-ease with being with me! Instead, it’s more, more, more so we can be crazy busy! Such an empowering feeling isn’t it? (Yes that is sarcasm at its finest folks.) Quite frankly I am tired of hearing this from people, so now I don’t ask but it becomes the usual response and deepens the land of the living dead.
Yes, I have been walking on and off the land of the living dead because my self-worth is a title, ownership and how much money I can attach to this.
l have an agreement with myself, I have sold a part of my business so I can take this time to rebrand Kim-BS-Smith! (Ok, I am laughing here!) I say this to people and they think the usual rebranding of Kimbsmith- the business part, and yes part of that is true, but I mean the re-wiring-rebranding of me! My identity has been the founder and CEO of Bold Radio for almost 5 years, and now it is gone. It was time to sell and pass the baton, to go out on a high note. It was also time for me to slow down so I can speed up, and this does not sit well with me. I am a doer, mover…get sh*t done!
Old thoughts kick in, my skin begins to crawl. Everyone is moving on and Kim, here you sit. I know from experience, you can set goals, grow a business, and so on but until we strengthen the foundation-the foundation of ‘me’ it will crumble underneath you…I am walking proof of this. I have a closed head injury, I am dealing with horrible a pain in my stomach, and I am feeling empty because I’ve been neglecting me. So no more biting my tongue, holding back or placing others first; I bow only to my higher spirit- God! I slow down to become stronger in my foundation.
This is not a New Year’s resolution; this is re-wiring my life. I am not at fault for your mishaps, nor do I teach others to bail on their commitments. I teach and lead to show up no matter what is going on. Forget my titles, for I am me- take it or leave it. But please own your own sh*t, I cannot cause you pain or misery. I can only manage my own stuff by choice! This is the work I do for others so they can find their true success. Show up on your terms, honestly and clearly, even if tears are streaming down your face. Do not play the “I am fine” game, because I am not fine every day and I know you’re not either!
xo,
Kim
Love when the real Kim B. Smith shows up! You are an inspiration that walks her talk! Can’t wait to read more! #juicy
Thanks Sheila! I hope that my walk and talk does inspire!
Oh my goodness this is so spot on for me! Can’t wait to read more posts. Love this!
Thank you Doneane! You are such a great support!
Can’t wait to read more kim. Love your first post.
Thanks Lynn!
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TY Randy, this means a lot-a males perspective! 🙂
Proud of you Kim, let the lion roar and tell the world how it really is 🙂
TY my KatiePoo! You are an inspiration!
Very thought provoking post Kimba!
I’d love to hear more about how you’re moving into a place of realism and authenticity, whether it be positive or negative!
I feel like too many people ignore parts of themselves because it’s “negativity”, when in reality: we all have good days and bad, good thoughts and bad, good moves and bad.
Love the post. Can’t wait to read more of these short, snappy, personality furled articles
Thank you Scott! You know me well with my short, snappy post! I do get to the point!
The thing I love about you Kim is you aren’t afraid to speak your true self. You are going through what so many attempt, the difference is your persistence and determination. The keep moving forward attitude is contagious, it definitely has rubbed off on me.
Looking forward to your next post.
David, thank you so much. That means a lot to me! Anything I can do to continue to inspire!
I loved every word, Kim! Keep bringing your truth and you are going to inspire others to bring theirs! Thank you!!! Xo
Thank you so much Sharmin! I plan doing just that! 🙂
I’ve always loved this article. Even when I first read it to edit it. The not wanting to answer part really spoke to me.
It is so true, so when I do want to answer, I just say, I am grateful today and leave it to that! Hope this helps!